ive been posting on about other things but one of the most important things i really haven't been able to write about was the competition we had at PSD4.(memang macam da basi kan.)it's okay.

when i looked back where we started from.it brought sweet memories.
like how we used to be a "smokebreak" item during AGM.
(ingat tak?ingat tak?)

almost every time,we would have hiccups along the way.
remember there was a moment where we were soooo off pitched at the BHCC.
the time when i proudly (dengan tak segan silu) shouted "baik karut!" at Khatulistiwa.
that time when the gong stand fell on the stage.

i did took a step back.many steps back indeed.during my attachment.and even before it got started.
all boiled down to my other personal commitments that i had to attend to.

im glad i came back.this time around i made a promise that i would be more involved.more committed.more responsible.
aside being one of the oldest members,(walaupun aku taknak mengaku ni in public) and being an alumni,i knew i got to step up to the plate and potray a good example.atleast in my perspective a good enough example to the rest.even if i couldn't give ideas for ragams or whatnots,i knew i just had to contribute in other ways.

sidetrack jap.i wanted that to be my last one.i knew i had to pursue my goals in life.tapi it's like the more i wanted to let go,the more it pulled me back.insya'allah i would still be with nira,performing or not. ONCE A NIRA,ALWAYS A NIRA.



i would like to apologise if ive hurt anyone in the process especially with my foul mouth.(biar aku shoot depan2,nie dikatakan members.dari aku tikam dari belakang.mane kau nak?)i just wanted the best for us.for nira nyertika.


im always proud of being a nira.when i was on stage,at the end of it all,i couldn't stop smilling.like what faat blogged.i felt the same.
i was so elated and at my proudest peak in nira,when i saw the "abg2" stood up and clapped,as though they were watching us taking our first baby steps.it was an accomplishment.a good clean set.

tak sia2 aku turun training almost everyday.tak sia2 aku turun naik tu chinatown.effort paid off.ala senang cakap.PUAS HATI DI GOLDEN CHANCE.alhamdullilah.

memang la ade ups & downs dier but at the end of the day,
i know we have each other's backs now.

xoxo

haris:
"im sorry.im not like hafiz.or aidil.who is already working and earning.im just doing my ns now n earning only this much.n yet i have alot to settle with the pay i get.at the end of the month,i still cant even save abit.which i have been wanting to do so.with the way we spend.go out,i cant.this is the lifestyle that i can give you right now.i cant shower you with expensive things.bring you to expensive places.im not able to do all that.the only thing im sure that i have showered you enough with,without any hesitation or doubt,is my love n care for you.im sorry i cant give you all other.this is what i can give for now.if you are unhappy,or you cant deal with it,no more,tell me.i'll be happy to let you go.just to see you happy."

me:
"u make me cry with that.you know me kan.i will ask you for things cz i never ask anyone else not even my parents.i just like to feel as if im your little girl and ask2. but have i ever complain about it?tak kan.i dont mind when we didn't have money.we eat and lepak by the beach and makan tapau-ed food that i cooked.remember?im happy just being with you.and when i never get stuffs i asked for,did i ungkit?did i whine like a bitch?tak kan.i know im with a younger guy who is trying his best for our future.going all out to make sure that i be sufficiently provided.im happy that you forgave me n still took me in after countless times.im glad you're mine.ily always & forever."


money can sometimes buy moments of happiness but that's superficial ones.
i want moments of bliss happiness.pure happiness.not the ones that i get when i receive presents or what nots.the ones when you came down everyday when i was working at airport and you brought food and bought me raspberry frap.that ones.

we know we love each other.
understatement of the year.

what do you do when you hurt the one that matters the most.the one that you love with everything you've got.
it's your fault.none of theirs.
you hurt them so so so many times.too many times but this time,you know deep down this isn't the same ones.
but just this once,you didn't do it on purpose.you didn't think you were cheating.you thought it was harmless.

you really was determined to change your cheating ways.your sleeping state of mind.your perceptive.your phobia of commitment.
but in one night,within a few hours,you lost the one who stole your heart away.the one who said that they will never give up on you.the one that said they will always be there.the one who knows you are a diamond behind the rough edges.
(you lied.you lied to be with a friend.cause deep down you know she needed you.)

when someone ignores you,tells you that they donot want to be a part of THIS anymore,says that it has been full of lies,it is as though they rip a part of the heart and place it on your hand.all shattered and bruised.

how can you give up something you know that is meant to be.how can you take away and divide yourself into two and give that part back when you feel already as a whole.



"will you still love me in the morning?"

like i said baby,i will always love you.come what may.
no matter what happens,even if we are not meant to be.
even if we are destined to be with another,you will always be my baby.

in a few days' time,
this might be locked soon.

let me know if you are interested in getting access.

Your confidence in me is shaken
Your trust in me fully broken
Our past happiness seems forgotten
And it is me who allow it to happen.

So, sorry needs to be spoken
For I know you’re heartbroken
But I hope your heart will soften
And somehow, one day I can be forgiven.



No relationship is perfect, ever. There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater…The love we have for each other is bigger than these small differences. And that’s the key. It’s like a big pie chart, and the love in a relationship has to be the biggest piece. Love can make up for a lot. And that's when you ask me, i will answer "i love you just cause" is a good enough answer.
Love takes a lot of hard work.it's like a full time job.you need to nurture it 24/7. you have to attend to it. you have to have your full commitment alongside it.
when you take up the commitment,you have promised to not let go.
to make sure you fight for all you've got. there is no such thing as breaking up in real love.
that's my humble opinion.

haris told me to get up at 11am so that we could hop on to the swimming pools by 12 noon or the latest 1pm.butttt i was being a lazy ass again and woke up to slightly before 2pm and he was already at my doorsteps.
so i quickly changed and off we went to sengkang swimming pool.or rather anchorvale sports complex.we were enjoying ourselves when the heavy downpour started at about 5pm.poor haris.he wanted to have a decent aqua-workout but his gf was being so jakun in the slides and the jaccuzzi.hehehe

we tried the slides as in the purple and yellow sliding tubes.and haris injured himself.the depth of 1m was seriously not enough for the impact of his fall into the waters so he hit his elbow and knees at the bottom of the pool.kecian kan.so we only went down about 3 times. and you know what i was thinking of miza and yana.cause that time when we went to tampines swimming pool,it wasn't that fun.atleast not for me la.actually,i told haris if dorang and syed ade mesti lagi kecoh and best.


we were hungry so we ate super hard hotdogs at the 7eleven and cupnoodles.LOR MEE & SUP BONTOT!!hahahaha.for drinks,a big bottle of so masam apple juice.
it was freezing.as usual,i was feeling sleepy after swimming and eating.we just had to get out from there.so we proceeded to kovan.



at night,makan kerang and mee kuah at simpang with didi and afad too.afad was from work so we fetched him from BK and proceeded.i was feeling western food that night.but the price at spize was atrocious so i settled for kerang.the kicap chilli padi wasn't up to its usual standard.it tasted just like kicap.but the mee kuah and roti john didnot disappoint my LULU.

something mcm sials happened.
we were on the way home and his headlight was not functioning correctly so after much thought,we decided to gamble and for him to send me home at about 2am in the morning.
near to thomson exit,there was 2 wrx and a few cisco police officers.hence,we took the option of exiting and proceeding to woodlands via gambas.

DAMN! there was a roadblock after the bend at gambas avenue.
luckily,it was just a normal spotcheck.no fine.no saman.just verbal warning.so after he sent me home,he slept at my house and went home at about 5pm today.it was raining cats and dogs.and when he was on the road,it was still raining but he had to get to the blardy workshop.
we would be going jb with didi soon.to fix up his bike and service his bike.
tomorrow i would be having 3 job interviews.insya'allah.=)


xoxo
goodnight people.have a great weekend.=)

“Every girl needs a real man.
The kind that’ll treat you right.
The kind that has enough respect for you & is willing to change, just to be with you.
The kind that searches for you with all his heart & that can be trusted in a room full of beautiful girls.
Every girl needs a man who won’t cheat on her because he knows she’s got all that he wants & needs already.
He won’t mind calling you early in the morning just to say good morning or late at night to say good night; maybe even sing you a good morning song & tell you a bedtime story or talk to you until you fall asleep.
This guy will be the kind that’ll do anything for you, even if it’s to just go to the store & buy you your favorite kind of candy.
He would defend & fight for you & wouldn’t bail on you for his friends when you need him most.
The kind that won’t leave you lonely & wondering; the one that calls you surprisingly, even if he’s out with his friends, to just tell you that he loves & misses you a lot.
The kind that isn’t afraid to smile to his friends every time you’re around & tell them, “She’s the one”.
The kind that appreciates you for the things you do for him, even if they’re little. The ones that actually thank you for the little love notes you leave him, waits for you when you’re falling behind, & opens doors for you.
You need a man who will take you out on dates once in awhile & buy you flowers just because he feels like it.
The kind of guy that notices your hair when you just got it cut or done beautifully for him. He would remind you that he loves you & that he’s happy to be with you, just in case you forget.
The kind that just doesn’t want kisses & hugs, but to actually be loved & to love. You deserve a guy that will call you beautiful instead of hot, who kisses your forehead when you’re down, tells you to be strong & to not cry, & when you do cry, he’d cry with you when times are hard.
The kind that will go through thick & thin with & for you.
The kind that just loves you for who you are & not for who you aren’t and loves you because you’re his favorite girl in the whole wide world.”



i know one day you will find that guy.the guy that every girl deserves to be with.
if in the meantime,you know you have us girls,backing you up.
u noe we love you much.mwah.

prawning so much for the planning.i wanted to go prawning again but this time i wanted to try at bishan.after much APEC saga,we decided to meet the BL boys.
it was good lepaking at macs,teh tarik and lastly at the void deck.playing dai dee. and catching up with each other.khalid's fwb or the girl i called NYONYA has a decent name,nia.she is nice but i don't want to judge her as it was my first official lepaking session with her.it was good even though it was raining so we had to cancel our plan to ride to changi haunted place.no it's not OCH or some regular hunt.im not sure of the name,it's further up than the CHANGI CHAPEL.

now im at home.after eating nasi daging penyet,i continued to sleep with the cold weather snuggling infront of the tv.
haris wanted to catch POKER KING at 5.25pm at amk but i fell asleep and woke up at 4pm,at that time he was still at home.
since im hungry and it's raining,haris should be in the bus now, coming over here.and i should get ready.

i just wonder why people are happy at people's miseries.you know it sucks when it happens to you.you know how it hurts you.for me,personally,it's okay that i dislike the person but i won't laugh and be overjoyed when i hear their bad news.it's SADISTIC.

oh and another thing,i don't really like the "married","engaged" or "widowed" status that users are taking it for granted at fb.
in my humble opinion,i thought fb is a networking outlet so when you published this kinda things,it might seem a lil childish.in my opinion la.
and i know there are people who share the exact sentiments and those who disagree with it.
doesn't mean we all have to agree with each other kan.

im happier now.thank you to all the support from the girls and them boys.=)
thank you sooooo much.

amalina omar,i was with him when he was messaging you about that something.hahaha.

and to you whole lot of guys and girls,i don't care what have been speculating,what you heard or what you've said.
bottomline is eventhough i can stand on my own, im glad ive friends that truly support me in this.so carry on la with what you are doing.
nanti same jugak,lama2 da penat,dia stop jugak kan.

2007

after what happened on wednesday partying session,haris did not answer my phonecalls or my text messages.so i called him for the last time at 11plus.

we talked.we argued.i cried.he fought for us.i could see that.
so we talked about us dating that time.about me not wanting to have a status with him.about him wanting US back together.
about the changes.

and especially about trust.

talked till 5am in the morning.with one hand on the phone.the other supporting my head.lying down on the sofa.just talking and laughing.it was good.oh goddd,i missed all that.

hopefully,being back with him and with the changes that we agreed on,this time it will be a better journey making US stronger.insya'allah.we are trying again,risking everything again.but it is all damn worth it.

040907

"When you love someone, you’ve got to trust them. There’s no other way. You’ve got to give them the key to everything that’s yours. Otherwise, what’s the point?"
- ROBERT DE NIRO

i don't know what's the hell wrong with us.or rather me.
at first when i wanted a breakup even though ive hurt him, he didnot want it so i suggested a breakup but trying back together thing.
then after awhile,he asked me to give him space.i gave him all the space he needed.
after 3 weeks,i became restless.i literally begged for him to come back.he didnot want it at first.after 5 hours of talking,he gave US a month.a month to go dating and work it out as one unit.
before that month ended,he wanted US to be back.this was about 2 weeks back.i did not want US back.
on last tuesday,he asked me again.i said i didnot know.
i thought hard about it.and sat quietly,while looking at him.
finally said that we could make it work.cause i know that we are perfect for each other.opposites but similar.
both of us cleared up some issues.some aje.not all la.tipu la if i say talk2 until 2am can clear all issues kan.

especially when many people like lasalleboi,syedlove,syasyabff,amabb,aisyabb and especially2 richboi,trust and believe that im an amazing girl and i am capable of being that.if they trust i could do the right thing,i can definitely do it.these people know me inside out.they have been with me ever since i was 13/16/19.

i will stop being an asshole,a heartbreaker,a playa.i wouldn't want to regret losing the best guy.ive said this many many times.a gazillion times.and i always failed to do it right.insya'allah.
however,this past month plus ive done it good.ive done it well.i stayed within my boundaries.ive stayed within my limits.

not that a leopard cannot change its spots.it just doesn't want to.

and forget the saying "once a playa,always a playa".and let's start "there is a good girl in all of us.you just have to try."

he knows and never doubts the love i have for him.all he wants now is ME.to be back with him.

sunday's competition was great.a clean set even though our first time.im proud to be a nira always.=)sayang korangs semua nie termasuk orang2 yang pernah tolong kite dan tak lupe pengasas2 kita.




monday,i went to meet dayah and syedlove and some other pple at tampines and off to eat at simpang.kau imagine i just found out about prata goreng!!sedap jugak.should try la.tapi personally for me,kene pedas baru OMMMPH!

on tuesday,i went to meet syedlove and alep.
memang macam hari2 jumpe dier tapi takpe.bestfriends mah..
lepak-ed and then met up with haris.he treated me to late lunch and dinner at ljs.sedap seh.thank you richboi.he sent me home at about 2plus 3am.
but i decided to meet up with syedlove and them boys and ended back home at 2.30pm the next day.so i slept my wednesday throughout and went to meet up with nurul and siddiq at 11pm to go obar with her friends.and some guy friends.i can't exactly mention who la...it was indeed a good night.

i finally opened up to him.no not haris sidik,by the way just to make things clear,he knew i was going with them.
i felt good opening up and clearing up the air.i wanted to tell him things long time ago and i finally did it while i was still tipsy.i guess the alcohol gave me the push i needed.=)

thanks to you.my jc-lasalle friend.i knew we are good but i never knew that we are this tight.it's not that i wouldn't want to be with you then or now,i don't want me to hurt you and then we are no longer friends.i treasure you much more than that to risk it all.
to others,im azirahart.but to you still,im ira sanchez.=)

i will update about PSD4 and monday's jalan2 cari makan with syedlove,dayah,firman,taufiq and myra.

but for now,
im reminded of you when i saw this picture.

i used to pull you closer.
i used to pull you by your tshirt.just for a kiss.
and you used to tell me..."i suke a girl that kiss me first for no reason." and "u are the first one seh..."

you never appreciated me.not even as a friend.
looks can get you so far,but what's inside that matters.
i still believe that you are a nice person.prove me right.


well,ain't no more.

i kinda miss you.

anyways,i need to meet the girls again!i miss you girls.

oh.i miss amirul too.

back to my mundane life.=( sedih sesangat.
please ask me out.im free!!!

hatetagger GAAL


hatetagger IRA


as you can see,it's most probably a girl,seeing her nick of gaal and ira and the way she tagged.very girly la kan.
not only that,she is stealing someone's internet connection.it's illegal.
how would i know?well,she is around the same area but using different ISP(INTERNET SERVICE PROVIDER).


this is a warning to everyone.
i donot tolerate spammers or hatetaggers.
think before you do anything.
this is just step 1.

in singapore,NO ONE GETS AWAY SCOT FREE
it's an offence,you know.
don't let me track you down.
be careful with who you are messing with.=)

*click to enlarge picture.*

aishah's birthday party 08

syasya bday 09

my awesome 09.

ama's 09

our jumpshots at bawah block.


we are planning for something grand this coming december or hopefully january.
we have yet to celebrate aishah's and yaya's birthday and not forgetting sya's too.
hence,we decided it would be great to have 3 birthday bash at one go.
we are thinking of booking some nice hotels that will cater to us especially the design and outlook of the room.that's important lor.

3days and 2 nights.that's what we are hoping for.for everyone to be free and there.
first night,it will be us girls.eating.boozing.playing silly games.laughing till our stomachs and faces hurt.ala im not worried about the activities la in the room.pasal even lepak at anywhere,we will still have a great time.girls,remember at macdonalds town?ala yang dier cakap group kite mcm exciting and eavesdropped on our convo.

the 2nd night,ape lagi.we will rock the house down.tak tahu house siape.
still pending.we have always been going to obar for the longest time.cause booze is cheap and it's not like pasar geylang macam dblo or whatnots.
tengok keadaan.
i know we will always come up with some plan.

and sekarang ape tah demam si aidil haswin,mr amalina omar nie.tibe2 ajak ama to ZOUKOUT!!!
HAHAHAHA.i was laughing my ass off sak when i received her excited text.(asal excited?pasal all in caps and ade byk exclamation marks!!)
yes i should be going.ish mane boleh tolak.i would be inviting either haris.if not,siapa2 nak tag pn okayla.
bukan selalu or rather takpernah aidil ajak eh.and can buy number you know this one.

im excited for many things this upcoming weeks and months.
for this sunday bukan excited2 tapi more to having goosebumps.
then hopefully,i get a job next week since offices have been calling me for interviews and i pushed it to next monday.
birthday bashes or if not zoukout,whichever that happens first.
then after that,our 10 years anniversary of friendship on 2nd january.
of course.of course next is my birthday 29th january.tak sabar.
ive been hinting about handphones to a few people already.mana tahu they need time to kumpul duit.
and then the day i don't like is 6th february.im going to "lose" a friend lor for about 3 years.not going to think about that.it makes me sad.

sayang korgs!



pssst!!!!
aku ade tumblr.
im calling it my tupperware.
corny kan.takpe.pada aku cute.hah

i wanted to have thosai at little india since i can't be a brat and whined about it so i settled for SRISUN's.
their butter thosai is not nice.butter tak rase langsung.it tasted as though i order the normal thosai
.after that,i had the sweetest drink of iced tehcino.manis poteng kaki tau kengkawans.

oh i ordered an additional egg prata when i saw afad's reaction eating.nampak selera kan.perangai budak gemok,aku tahu.takpe asal aku happy sudah.

after that,went to training.it was already 7.30pm but only 8 awok2.
entahla.
this should be my last competition.so when i think back of the times i had,i want to smile and say.."that's my nira"





gmbr lain semua at fb.trying to upload at blogger and its being a BIG BITCH.

faat,miza and me were hungry so we decided to go techno BUTTTT bbq wing rice takde so terpakse pergi ke alkadir.makan maggi goreng.tak sedap sangat la.and took the last bus home.
sekarang aku kempunan sushi and seafood.how?

thanks richboi.toiletgirl is happy that you took time off to teman me eat thosai just now.even though we are not together anymore,you still make this little girl happy. i know we will work this out.i have faith in myself.in you.and in us.
it just takes time.
however,if we don't make it back,im happy that you are in my life still.
you are one of the good guys ive known personally.
whatever it is,come what may,you will always be in my hart.
happy 4th anyways! 26th months.

gmbr tkde kene mengena dengan post dibawah.


eh please eh kau.
you deleted my facebook account.
and when i had the new one,you rejected my request.
so you think i bother you don't accept?
tak kempunan la beb.

then tu takpe,aku terima.
tapi asal kacau2 aku kat msn???
kau da tebiat tibe out of the blue cakap "BYE!" aje???


if i did something to offend you,im really sorry.i apologised sincerely from my hart.
but if i did it,please let me know so im aware of my own actions.
tapi kan if you are doing this to piss me off,eh dude it's not funny anymore.

im going to continue to be nice with people like you.maybe then you will realise it sooner or later.insya'allah.
"biar orang buat kite,jangan sesekali buat orang." something my gf amalina told me many times.so im putting it into practice.

honestly,i waited for you the whole day.i was sick.i was not feeling well.i ate two slices of bread at 3pm.
i knew it was raining so you couldn't come down and meet me.but why is it so hard to take the public now?you could do all that when we were dating.you could all that when we were together before you had your bike.

then i found out you were at marsilling with your sister and her finance.it was at 8pm.
all you could say was that you took the car.you used to take the last bus when we chilled at my place.eating and watching tv or movies.and now it mattered whether ryssa was with you.

then when you said you be back late at 12 likethat,i said okay.
i turned down invitations of meetups and supper treats just so to wait for 9 hours and still counting.waited patiently.without being angry or agitated or annonying like i used to.
i don't want you to think i go out and have dinner or late super late dinner with other guyfriends jz cause you can't.i don't want you to think i only look for you when i need something.
padehal aku memang boleh jumpe any of the friends and they will take me to eat anywhere.


i really cant say much.
i can't expect anything.
i shouldn't.i can't.

sekarang aku lapar and sakit,siapa yang sanggup tapau aku makan abeh turun bawah blok makan?

AZIRA HART.

29 jan.
Pursuing a DEGREE IN EVENTS MANAGEMENT.

i'll write and rant about everything and anything under the stars.some of the entries are basically "on the spot feelings" kinda entries. others are about the mad and hectic adventures i go through.
If i hit onto something, DONT come pointing fingers at me.
This is where I rant.
nothing affects me most.except friends and family.

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